Four + one

I'm pregnant!

I know many of you already know this but, yes,

once again

I am pregnant.

(and this baby will be 28 months apart from my last born,

thank you very much, just for those of you

with your mouth open still)

I am happy but it certainly seems

less

and less

and less

glamorous then your first.

a lot less.

It's just.........I don't know

not fun.

With your first,

despite all the

nausea

heartburn

sleepless nights

sadly knowing where all the bathrooms are in every store

uncomfortableness

can't breath

worrying about every little pain

just constantly worrying

big belly (which you secretly think is cute)

if the baby moved 10 times in the past half hour.......

it really is fun.

because it's all new

and

exciting.

But that's gone

I'm over it (which makes me sad)

As far as I'm concerned, until the baby arrives, being pregnant stinks

and i feel guilty because i have really easy, textbook pregnancies. Shhh

and forget the cute big belly thing by your third

ha

its not cute anymore, just big and big

so in a nutshell my stomach is

well

big.

Like so big that at 10 weeks

i HAD to bust out the maternity pants

Like so big that I'm the same size

as a first timer at 6 months

and I'm only 4

whatever

So.........

the good news is.....

it is a GIRL!

My plans, as far as child bearing are concerned,

are going according to plan,

2 boys

&

2 girls

then I am done

unless there is some divine intervention

bottom line I wouldn't keep having children if it wasn't wonderful

I mean overall

seriously I am very happy and love seeing

my little family growing

besides who doesn't love those little

smushed faces and tinny tiny toes when they come out

and even as they turn into little monsters.

who is the only one who thinks their kid is cute even with snot dripping out of their nose

only a mother

only a mother

she gets to love like no one else............

and that is worth everything.